I have been at this for a year, on and off.  I sit down here to write about my personal conquest against me, and it works for a while and then I go back to where I started.

Here I go again.

What are my problems, issues?

The same as a few years ago:

• Money–2 months after bankruptcy I am in a worse place.  How can that be?
• Weight–I am up 10 pounds in the past month.
• House–I am again a victim of CHAOs–Can’f have anyone over syndrome
• Future–I am hating work.  I need a change.
• Me–Who, what, when, where, why–so many questions, yet, when will I start to work on them?

Who–who am I to be and when will I decide to look into it?  My God, I am 51 years old, when will I begin to work on it?  At 60?  70?   In the next life?

What–What is keeping me stuck?

When–is it important enough that I take center stage?

Where–do I need to live, work, play?

Why–am I living this way when I am smart, capable.

Tonight I am going to do some laundry and dishes.  Tonight I am going to plan.  Tonight I am going to try, again, to be the start of the life I want and deserve.